Sorry !!

I think that in life, sometimes you allow things to get you down because of what you ingest into your lives.

I believe that one of the reasons for this is you will unconsciously strive to find your value within the very elements of life, which validates only the not-so-lovely parts of your beings leaving you in a state of dysfunction and mental confusion. For no reason, you invite physical and verbal abuse into your lives because, ​after all, that is what you deserve, right? After all, you only should allow yourselves to experience a minimum amount of happiness.

-- Sorry! For being human…..

Yet, what I maintain is, the fears of life will drive you into thinking that you are no better than your present circumstances. Thereby if life, releases your hate. For some, you willingly accept hate. If life releases you from unnecessary conflict, you take those types of relationships because why? You battle with personal issues of low self-esteem and dignity; you will not see the beauty which you can offer yourself. If life issues you physical abuse, you accept that type of abuse because, for some, any attention or feelings of love out-weighs not feeling anything at all. Yet, I am here to encourage you that life is what you make it. Life can be amazing. Life can bring you your deepest dreams because you are worthy. It’s just that pressing question that I pose to you, who do you feel is the issuer of your self-dignity?

--SORRY! For being human……

Apparently, you feel that the opinions of others are the issuer of who you are and claim to be. You are in a PIT (place of intended trials), and when you are there in that dark part of your lives (self-included), you will justify self-hatred. You will accept nonsense because you have allowed negativity to define who you are. You have allowed hatred to give you a lowered stance. You permitted dysfunction to convince you that living by the rules of ill rationality is normal. If you do not look at the real person, you spiritually die. Maybe it is time for me to continue to walk alone? Perhaps you are right. I had a godmother once who told me year after year, “baby, sometimes you have to walk by yourself.” I think in some ways, I resented her for telling me that. But now, as a 49-year-old woman, I can honestly say, I understand. --

--SORRY! For being human……

What’s that I understand, you ask? Sometimes, when we are in a PIT, we become our naysayers. We become our own worst enemies. We become the cheerleaders for a broken consciousness, which leads to an unhealthy and aberrated sense of self and an undignified being of craziness. You do not have to. You do not have to submit to a world that uninvites you from living a fulfilling life. You can find your place. You do not have to submit to feelings of worthlessness, degradation, a lack of standards, or even jealousy. You see, as humans, it is natural to want to be included over being secluded. It is natural to want to feel loved as a result of your social and family networks. That is the way God made us. People who connect with others.

-- SORRY! For being human……

But if everywhere you go, you are rejected. And at the expense of maintaining personal responsibility, you could have been the issue. Just accept the rejection and move on because maybe that does mean that it is your time to walk alone. When you are alone, if you think about it this way, you can listen to God more adequately. You can hear yourself truly breathe. You may even find a bit of happiness. Do not be afraid during this season because being alone may mean God is getting you ready to be someone better. And if that someone does not physically manifest, become someone for yourself. My point through this analogy, love yourself.

-- SORRY! For being human……

Emerge from the crevices of life, which dictates that you are no better than the crust found on a stinky old beat-up trash can. Stop making excuses for why you deserved to be treated like you do not or did not matter. Because you do, admit that you hurt so that you can move on. Admit that what they said made you feel like you were nothing at all. Admit that you loved them, and now you cannot ever go back. Admit that you lost control, and you do not have it all together. Because when you do, this is a promise. You will still live. You can survive. You will always be here. And while you are standing there in that very spot waiting and hoping to return to that negative relationship that broke you. They have moved on and found something or someone which they have deemed more befitting for their lifestyle. And that is okay. You see, when you love yourself, you authentically will allow others to be themselves, as you are allowed to be true to your beliefs, values, and attitudes (within reason:O)) The truth is, the signs were always there.

-- SORRY! For being human……

Thereby, be the better version of yourselves. Love your DANG self and understand that we all live in GLASS houses. Thus, you cannot justify throwing a rock back at your reflection because, at the end of the day, what you reflect ultimately becomes what you expect and vice versa. They do not like you. Or maybe they just_did_not_find_value_in_your_presence! Hey, not everyone likes chocolate milk either. Your time there is over. And even though many may have a very negative opinion of you. Be careful not to adopt those same self-defeating opinions of yourselves. They are scary. Maybe they can put you away and throw away the keys. However, now that I have become the person to share with you, your hard-cold truth. Realize that even though, for some, they closed the door on you, just know that now it is your time to walk alone or choose a different path. Do you know what the funny thing is? I know how it feels to be falsely accused and not be able to defend yourself. This won’t be forever. God is there.

-- SORRY! For being human……

My encouragement. Do not put yourselves away. You deserve all that life has to offer. You are the best. You will make it. This is a temporary situation. Nowwww it is time to wave your white flag and surrender to enjoying and loving your multifaceted and extraordinary life. Bow your head down gracefully. Move on. And promise, not only me but yourselves that you will not stay where you are not wanted. I now believe that when many doors shut, soon your key will fit somewhere. And prayerfully, that "where" will be the place that God cultivated just for you with your cute self. Ha. Be safe. Enjoy life. And do not take "you" for granted.

You matter.

-- Sorry! NOT SORRY! For being human……

See you next time,

-Lisa @d2dlife1